It isn't good when you start your day DONE. Patience gone, frustration level high, just done. The kind of day when you really just want to hibernate. But oh yeah, you have babies to take care of and they fuss and fight and hit and say "my mama!" or do anything else just to get your attention. And you are done. You don't have very much attention left to give. You feel like you're teetering on the edge of losing it. Getting mad and then sitting almost collapsing into a huge burst of tears. Oona I need you to sleep.
Anyways, this is not one of my prouder mothering moments. So here goes a self-motivating pep-talk. Patience is a virtue. Assume a virtue if you have it not. I guess that's all I can really do today. Every moment is an opportunity to have patience and be loving and gentle and forgiving to all around me. (After I get done beating a pillow up... lol.)
I used to think lol meant lots of love instead of laughing out loud. Both interpretations might be appropriate today. I have my fingers crossed that I get some knitting time in today. I might need it to recharge my patience-o-meter.
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Do you know much about EFT? I'm not sure that the energy work is what helps, or if it is the silly little self affirmations, or even just that I have to sit and NOT react to being so frustrated for a minute, but it's helping this week.
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Someday they will sleep. And then we are going to have so much energy and patience that we will be like Ghandi running a marathon. Someday... :)
that looks really interesting. i've done something really similar with an EMDR therapist. a great reminder.
ReplyDeletei'm really looking forward to the sleep part. currently, i decided to binge on sugar instead of tapping or beating up a pillow. probably not the most constructive thing to do, but...